今日得閒去睇下FORUM，
見到有POST話JY變左－「為出碟而出碟」
相信JY唱功同曲風都同以前唔同左呢個係好明顯，
不過我覺得「變」呢樣野係好或唔好係因人而異，
沒有為此爭吵既需要。

如果講我個人意見既話，
確實暗暗地我都即刻走去聽一次「逃避你」跟住再聽一次「雙冠軍」
JY唱歌既方法係同以前唔同（呢D野我唔曉我唔識講有咩唔同Orz)
但係對我黎講我絕對係比較鍾意而家既JY既唱法，以前硬係覺得佢似用喉嚨唱歌多D。
真正令我越黎越鍾意JY既原因係我鍾意佢既歌曲風多變化，
打破左我對CANTON-POP「一成不變」既印象
(ESP. MAD ABOUT YOU *係到STARLIGHT先唱到果種SEXINESS*同最近既桃色冒險都唔錯)

對於「變」呢個字我自己都好敏感，
我覺得對於一個歌手／團體／樂隊既追求係一種賞識，唔係一種負擔，
我家聚果日先同呀矢傾過呢個問題，
我會「因為佢d歌好聽所以買佢CD所以鍾意佢」，
而唔係「因為鍾意佢所以佢d歌好聽所以買佢CD」，
但係呀矢唔明我講咩/.\
我覺得偶像崇拜就有呢個問題係度，
成件事好似本末倒置左，
that's why我已經冇買GAZE既DVD，
因為呢種關係先係最健康，
好聽既我就買，唔好聽既我就唔買，
while there are still people who love their music, I am totally fine with it. It doesn't necessarily mean I don't like them anymore, nor I still love them as hell, I just learnt that I shouldn't endlessly and blindly purchasing their albums/singles because of who they are rather than what they compose. 

我諗呢個就係由始至終我都唔會claim我自己係JY飯既原因，
不過都真心想講，我覺得佢係on the right path，所以應該繼續「更上一層樓」。

以上係睇完華語流行音樂樂壇FORUM有感。 

Only films that do carry a message are worth to watch more than a time. 

今朝因為襯衫失敗，同自己D衫鬥氣，襯得唔滿意唔出門口，
最後襯左兩個鐘都失敗，
走左堂JPN，
搭的士返去，
發覺遲到遲得太緊要，
走埋Phonetics，
覺得自己人生好失敗。

今日上JSP堂玩FOUND POEM，好好玩，不過我覺得多D時間會更好，
因為最尾個STANZA真係可以再好D，
不過始終都好鍾意我地既FOUND POEM. :-)

Supermarket Heart 

The length of the sky,
The size of my ignorance. 
All through my life
Never did believe in human measurement
Right and wrong,
Not sides of a coin.

He was made of dark --
went off so quick,
lifting and falling
with each breath.
Love medicine ain't
What brings him back?

Desire.
Part of a great loneliness.
like a storm in fall,
shaking yellow leaves down.
Winter deep and quiet,
share the loneliness that was one shape.

It's true feeling.
something valuable that was broken 
put carefully back together,
not no magic.
Thought it curled up and 
died.

Lost of memory
protection from the past?

跟住留左係學校一陣同Kerrie blow water :-)
好耐冇試過咁同佢傾計啦
it's good to hear something that you have never listened before
probably大家來自不同social background
意見都唔同, that's why同佢傾計會有所得著
如果可以再傾耐D就好 

跟住就家族聚會啦yeah :-)
終於見到清霞好開心<3<3
今晚d麻甩仔一係冇黎一係早走
所以係ladies' night yeah!
好鍾意呢d girls' talk, 好intimate, 而且好true and honest
舒服
令我諗起既係原來我地擁有既野唔一定係自己最想要既野
令我諗起要衝破barrier既1個starting point
令我諗起你以為冇點知有
令我諗起你以為想要原來唔想
好inspiring既1個conversation.
可惜我冇野講, or i repress myself so hard that i cant dig it out anymore

好
今次講左以後每次家聚都要有DRESS CODE.

太好啦, 今晚有得relax一下(除左我隻腳)
thank you guys for giving me such a wonderful night. xoxo 

Adam Lambert's debut album "For Your Entertainment" will be released on 23/11/2009!!
得我等!!!

岩岩睇完Lie to me, 其實真係幾SAD
係咪要等Cal自己俾人脅持, 見到Foster緊張佢多過單case,
先發現原來呢個人咁care自己,
does it really that hard to realize one's importance? so hard that it almost costs a life?
it's so sad that we are all like this,
we will never know someone is important to us until we lose or almost lose him/her,
or else we will just take him/her presence for granted.
but you know i almost cried at last to see Cal and Foster hug each other, they clutch each other so tight that it hurts, and they close their eyes at that very moment, they enjoy the few seconds of owning each other. and then i thought of myself, i have never hugged someone so tight that i didn't wanna let go before, most of the time i am the one being hugged, i never hug people. i am like i don't really care about your hug, and i find it so hard to warp my arms on someone's back. maybe it's me, always me, who is reluctant to love because sometimes or most of the time love hurts.
but why i was so touched is that after so many things, Foster's divorced, Cal's divorced, Cal is threatened, they realize that the one who he/she claims he/she loves isn't who he/she really loves at all. who he/she wants is the one who is always beside him/her, the presence is so natural that he/she thinks it doesn't deserve attention or appreciation. 

sometimes i question myself too, is it what i want? or do i want something else? there are times that i can't answer myself, but there are also times that i find out the answer, but so sad i can do nothing on it. like do it all over again? give up eng major? or lit-concentration? i feel so helpless.

but we always want something that is unobtainable. because it's so far away that somehow it appeals to us because we think it's flawless while it's not. maybe the unobtainable nature makes it beautiful, it makes you want it.

well i can almost make an essay on it. wtf

no shopping sherry is weird. so freaking weird.
can anyone tell me what the hell is wrong with me? do i got brain tumor that affects my desire to shop? 

ok now all i want is sleep. goodnight. 

傑傑, 我有很忙live version mp3啦 :3

受Sylvia Plath的The Bell Jar影響很深，越睇越覺得自己痴線，越睇越Depressed，今日直程係做咩都冇心機。
搭搭下車又差D喊出黎。because it's something happened before so i will never ever do it again, at least i will try my very best to control myself, well it's uncontrollable though... 

今日Sense到我同平時唔同既人，只有Viggo同我媽咪。
我諗除左我自己，最了解我既人始終都係我媽咪，畢竟most of my mental breakdown我媽咪都在場，而事實亦都令佢好擔心。不過暗暗地佢自己都唔好得去邊，一樣令我擔心。

今日真係好難頂，因為真係好唔開心好唔開心，要控制自己情緒真係好辛苦。
完全唔可以let go。

見到Criminal Minds season 5 都未想睇...やばい。

希望聽日會好D，因為唔可以甩底，
最近有太多甩底attempts turned out 俾人鬧好多次。
damn...