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devil.

今朝因為襯衫失敗，同自己D衫鬥氣，襯得唔滿意唔出門口，
最後襯左兩個鐘都失敗，
走左堂JPN，
搭的士返去，
發覺遲到遲得太緊要，
走埋Phonetics，
覺得自己人生好失敗。

今日上JSP堂玩FOUND POEM，好好玩，不過我覺得多D時間會更好，
因為最尾個STANZA真係可以再好D，
不過始終都好鍾意我地既FOUND POEM. :-)

Supermarket Heart 

The length of the sky,
The size of my ignorance. 
All through my life
Never did believe in human measurement
Right and wrong,
Not sides of a coin.

He was made of dark --
went off so quick,
lifting and falling
with each breath.
Love medicine ain't
What brings him back?

Desire.
Part of a great loneliness.
like a storm in fall,
shaking yellow leaves down.
Winter deep and quiet,
share the loneliness that was one shape.

It's true feeling.
something valuable that was broken 
put carefully back together,
not no magic.
Thought it curled up and 
died.

Lost of memory
protection from the past?

跟住留左係學校一陣同Kerrie blow water :-)
好耐冇試過咁同佢傾計啦
it's good to hear something that you have never listened before
probably大家來自不同social background
意見都唔同, that's why同佢傾計會有所得著
如果可以再傾耐D就好 

跟住就家族聚會啦yeah :-)
終於見到清霞好開心<3<3
今晚d麻甩仔一係冇黎一係早走
所以係ladies' night yeah!
好鍾意呢d girls' talk, 好intimate, 而且好true and honest
舒服
令我諗起既係原來我地擁有既野唔一定係自己最想要既野
令我諗起要衝破barrier既1個starting point
令我諗起你以為冇點知有
令我諗起你以為想要原來唔想
好inspiring既1個conversation.
可惜我冇野講, or i repress myself so hard that i cant dig it out anymore

好
今次講左以後每次家聚都要有DRESS CODE.

太好啦, 今晚有得relax一下(除左我隻腳)
thank you guys for giving me such a wonderful night. xoxo 

Adam Lambert's debut album "For Your Entertainment" will be released on 23/11/2009!!
得我等!!!

岩岩睇完Lie to me, 其實真係幾SAD
係咪要等Cal自己俾人脅持, 見到Foster緊張佢多過單case,
先發現原來呢個人咁care自己,
does it really that hard to realize one's importance? so hard that it almost costs a life?
it's so sad that we are all like this,
we will never know someone is important to us until we lose or almost lose him/her,
or else we will just take him/her presence for granted.
but you know i almost cried at last to see Cal and Foster hug each other, they clutch each other so tight that it hurts, and they close their eyes at that very moment, they enjoy the few seconds of owning each other. and then i thought of myself, i have never hugged someone so tight that i didn't wanna let go before, most of the time i am the one being hugged, i never hug people. i am like i don't really care about your hug, and i find it so hard to warp my arms on someone's back. maybe it's me, always me, who is reluctant to love because sometimes or most of the time love hurts.
but why i was so touched is that after so many things, Foster's divorced, Cal's divorced, Cal is threatened, they realize that the one who he/she claims he/she loves isn't who he/she really loves at all. who he/she wants is the one who is always beside him/her, the presence is so natural that he/she thinks it doesn't deserve attention or appreciation. 

sometimes i question myself too, is it what i want? or do i want something else? there are times that i can't answer myself, but there are also times that i find out the answer, but so sad i can do nothing on it. like do it all over again? give up eng major? or lit-concentration? i feel so helpless.

but we always want something that is unobtainable. because it's so far away that somehow it appeals to us because we think it's flawless while it's not. maybe the unobtainable nature makes it beautiful, it makes you want it.

well i can almost make an essay on it. wtf

no shopping sherry is weird. so freaking weird.
can anyone tell me what the hell is wrong with me? do i got brain tumor that affects my desire to shop? 

ok now all i want is sleep. goodnight. 

個腦不斷咁播Adam Lambert唱既I Just Love You
好冧添，最衰佢唔係唱俾女人聽:-S

熱切期待11月出既albumssssss
Adam Lambert
Lady Gaga <-Bad Romance我今日聽左四五次lol
Carrie Underwood
One Republic <-All the Right Moves 正

等Adam Lambert既album真係等到頸都長!!長過長頸鹿!!

灰左,真係灰左
我曾經覺得自己真係會跟佢地,一直咁跟佢地
but...iono, something has changed, either my attitude, or their attitude
有種追唔落去既感覺, 仲諗緊買唔買Before I Decay
俾返2006年果種熱誠俾我得唔得/.\ 俾返d好似NIL咁既質素既音樂我
realize左呢件事之後,成個人好似空洞左咁, 覺得冇1種精神支柱
唉

媽媽話我係老年化既年青人
being out of the norm就會俾人話
I AM THE ONLY SANE PERSON IN THIS MAD WORLD!!

今日無啦啦就俾傑傑嗌左出黎唱K, 成件事都好即興
未試過同呀壹唱K, 呀仲有今日同隻蚊唱K
我地唱足咁耐, 佢飛足咁耐
好彩我著長袖 唔俾你咬heehee >:D 
好啦 我唔會再唱<<很忙>>架啦
今日唔記得左點<<圓謊>>同<<答案>>添!!
哎呀開到聲但係冇點到張惠妹d歌唱
次次都係傑傑係度我先會完全開到聲
下次同第二班人唱K可唔可以帶埋佢-_-
好似果D POCKET MONSTER咁, 開聲鴨!

今日難得睇超級巨聲
深深明白唱歌真係一門高深既學問 

得架啦我知乃野,
HEA左兩日冇睇DRACULA, 呢個星期仲要交JOURNAL嘛,
有CABINET BRIEFING嘛,
下星期PRESENT嘛, 
係呀LOVE MEDICINE仲未拎到本書嘛,
得架啦我知乃晒野
乃過奶昔

Oh, some of us "loved" her. The Maginot Line. And Cholly loved her. I'm sure he did. He, at any rate, was the one who loved her enough to touch her, envelop her, give something of himself to her. But his touch was fatal, and the something he gave her filled the matrix of her agony with death. Love is never any better than the lover. Wicked people love wickedly, violent people love violently, weak people love weakly, stupid people love stupidly, but the love of a free man is never safe. There is no gift for the beloved. The lover alone possesses his gift of love. The loved one is shorn, neutralized, frozen in the glare of her lover's inward eye.

The Bluest Eye 

He who is not loved is dehumanized and objectified. He who doesn't love is paralyzed and grotesque. He who is not loved and doesn't love, is spiritually DEAD.

every time she thinks about it, it saddens her.

ERIC我錯手DEL左你個COMMENT，ごめんね<3

我想講, 我善變都唔係冇原因既喎, and i have the right to 善變 coz i m a woman wahaha

"Book after Book"係我sem1既theme.

想換電話, 想換相機, 想買衫, 想換化妝品, 想唔找卡數, 想唔交學費

人有DESIRE都係一件SUFFERING既事, FOR DESIRES CAN NEVER BE SATISFIED

暫時可以滿足既係, 

今晚可以早D訓:-)